Saturday, December 19, 2009

Holiday Half Book

Macomb Community College Student Publication
Holiday Half Book
December 2009 Edition

Electronic Post of Print Publication (with some format alterations)

Featured Artists
Jenifer DeBellis, Vice President & Publisher
Professor Clark Iverson, Academic Advisor
Cathy Plum, President
Nancy Washburn, Secretary
Stella (Wilfinger) Rothe, Public Relations
Neil Kilgore
Katrina Rucker
Ize Spielman
Helen Tackle
Sarah Sinnaur
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What Do the Holidays Mean to Us?
A collaboration of thoughts by the Writing Club

Here comes Santa Claus in a myriad of forms
                                              A dichotomy of quirky personalities
Overplayed music that never seems to change
                               Dealing with countless customers’ complaints
The never-ending search for the perfect gift
                                            Wrong size, wrong style, wrong color
December birthdays swept under the rug
                                               Is Jesus the reason for the season?
The presence of silence just after a snow
                                        For the feast, the family comes together
The best pumpkin pie that money can’t buy
                                Lighted Christmas trees and sitting by the fire
I’ll drink to getting lit! Or how ‘bout
                                     Those guests that just don’t seem to leave
Decorations all aglow lighting up the night
                                      I can see my neighbor’s house from space,
Jack Frost roasting on an open fire,
                                                       Chestnuts nipping at your nose
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Reflections on a Snowy Balcony
By Stella Rothe (Wilfinger)

Mind: be blank
like the pristine snow.
Be still. Be silent
like the world below.
There is a place
where the Wild Thoughts go …
Go now, be swift
like the falling snow.
Mind: be hushed
like the wintry breath
of wind and angels
not demons, nor death.
There is a place
where our pain is kept …
go now, leave me
in one hurried breath.
Mind: be pure
like the crystal ice
that melts off my rooftop
in self-sacrifice.
There is a place
far-removed from Paradise …
go now, be gone
like the melting ice.
Go now, be gone
with your avarice.
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How Do You Celebrate Christmas?
Like Polly Perfection or Patty Poinsettia?
By Nancy Washburn

POLLY PERFECTION starts in November, and instructs the gardener to lay 40 strings of white lights on the shrubs and Japanese maple trees, in the court yard. A smiling Santa is sitting in a gigantic hand painted red wooden sleigh, filled with exactly 40 huge presents evenly stacked in the back. The illuminated reindeer are methodically hitched to the front of the sleigh, for all the neighbors to enjoy. The attached four car garage has a 20 foot ceramic snowman in front of it, guarding the BMW’s. The 200 watt spotlight glows on the leaded glass front door. A perfectly shaped wide burgundy bow is adorning the sweet scented pine wreath.

Polly is excited about the holidays. She loves Victorian style décor for Christmas, and had special ordered all of it from Italy. Holly and lace garland is strategically strung along the railing of the oak stairway, in the foyer of the two story mansion. One thousand gold miniature lights twinkle from the tops of the cathedral shaped windows. She is vigilant about telling Roberto, the handyman, to arrange the golden collector’s angels in groups of ten, in every niche. She carefully plans which chandeliers should be wrapped with dazzling crystals.

All three of the freshly cut ten foot spruce trees are decorated alike. They are in the dining room, living room and the den. Each tree looks elegant, with one hundred hunter green and burgundy velvet ribbons, and ten strings of gold lights. Under the trees are gold circular tracks, with hunter green trains whistling as they go around. The gorgeous presents are placed in alphabetical order, to each member of the family. The children, Bobby and Bridget, will be at their grandmother’s until after dinner, so that the house won’t get out of order.

On Christmas Day, Polly will wear an Armani burgundy gown and her husband, Paul, will wear a black tuxedo. They make a beautiful couple, with their dark hair and blue eyes. Dinner will be served promptly at 6:00 p.m. Bing Crosby’s “White Christmas” will be playing the background. The formal dining room table has been set with an ivory tablecloth, gold candlesticks and ivory candles, oval burgundy plates, gold flatware & champagne glasses edged with gold. Polly and Paul, will have their cook, Gina, prepare dinner for 12 adults. The menu consists of shrimp hors d’oeuvres, prime roast beef, candied sweet potatoes, Waldorf salad and raspberry trifle. It will be another perfectly Polly Christmas.

OR

PATTY POINSETTA rushes to the $1 store, on Christmas Eve, looking for a few decorations to make her one bedroom apartment sparkle. In the clearance section, she finds a red shiny wooden wreath, a cute three foot spindly, green aluminum tree, some miniature, red, green and silver bulbs, and twenty strands of shiny tinsel. She picked out some gifts to put under the tree. She bought some books and toys for the kids, 3 pairs of socks for her boyfriend, Pokey, and a Christmas Carol DVD. Patty loves Christmas, and she sings “Jingle Bells” all the way home.

When she pulls up to her parking spot on the gravel, in her rusty Chevy pickup, she unloads her packages, and throws the crooked wreath on a rusty nail by the squeaky side door.

The mood is Christmas. She gets out the cardboard box with the Nativity set in it, and gently places it on the TV stand, surrounded by white cotton. Patty is smiling, as she puts the tree on an orange crate and haphazardly hangs the bulbs on it. She stands near her dad’s rocking chair, and tosses the tangled tinsel at the tree, missing most of it. She cuts out a big Santa from red construction paper, and Scotch tapes him to the foggy window. Whew. The decorating is done.

She wraps the presents in red tissue and newspaper, and then ties them with white shoelaces. They looked super. She enjoys being thrifty and last week, found some red material on sale, and sewed special outfits for Susie and Sammy to wear for Christmas. They will look adorable with their sandy hair and brown eyes. Patty will wear her favorite green polyester dress, and a flower in her dishwater blond hair. They are going to bake chocolate chip cookies for Santa.

On Christmas day, the kids are all excited. They will wait for Pokey to show up on his motorcycle, and then all open their presents together. Patty is anxious to pull out her mother’s old checkered tablecloth. The kids help her set the table with red plastic plates and worn, but scrubbed clean silverware. Great! There is enough for four people. She has decided to cook the family recipes of meat loaf, mashed potatoes and sponge cake, topped with strawberries and whipped cream. Patty says a “Thank you” prayer for their family being together. Supper is ready. They will have to hurry, before the electricity starts flickering on and off in their neighborhood again.

They always have fun being together, singing songs and unwrapping presents. Pokey and the kids gave Patty a loving card, some home made pot holders, and a new calendar. It is another Patty Poinsettia Christmas.

Moral: No matter what the circumstances, we can make our own happiness.
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Season Out of Focus
By Jenifer DeBellis

‘Tis the season,
it comes like a thief in the night
Robbing the cradle
of peace, joy, and focused sight
How it sends us rushing
every which way but right

Long forgotten is the reason,
the heart of it all
We’ll race past the red bucket,
annoyed by the bell
And shove past the cattle line
entering the mall

Our focus on finding
the perfect gift to give
While people go hungry
and have no place to live
All the while in our pride
we claim we’re proactive

We shift the focus
debating over belief
While at the root of it all
births doctrinal grief
heart for the oppressed
should focus on relief

One closing thought:
How will you ignite the spirit?
Will you turn deaf ears
and pretend not to hear it?
Or can you receive the message
and revere it?
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December of ‘82
By Katrina Rucker

I remember December of ‘82; it was a snowing night in the city of Detroit. I was only five years old, and I had enjoyed watching the snow raining in like the pieces of the cloud have just falling off. Around eight o'clock at night, my parents were driving me to see all of the neighborhood decorations. We went from every block, and some of the houses had the most award-winning colorful lights ever. My eyes were opened to the amazement. As I loved to see every colored light bulb sparkled. It was speaking to my soul as I filled with the excitement. I cracked a smile, as any other five year old would do. I knew that it was that time again. 

We went from house to house, and each one was even better than the first one. They were all decked up with decorations, but this time, they were more than just the lights. They had the Snowman, the sled with reindeers. The one with the beautiful red glowing nose, I did not know what his name was at the time. I thought it started with an "R.”

The real holiday for me was that I got to spend time with my family. Going on these trips to see all of the colorful lights and the awesome decorations was a real treat for me. This trip back to December of ‘82 makes me wish I were five years old again.
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YES, CHRISTIMAS
By Nancy Washburn

CHRISTMAS reminds us of why we are here
To help each other, while God is so near
Have faith and forgiveness - follow His son
Bringing hope, joy and peace to everyone
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THE TWELVE DAYS OF GRANDKIDS 
 By Nancy Washburn 

On the first day of Grandkids, Alexa, 16,
Gave to me, a lesson on how to drive a car

On the second day of Grandkids, Kyla, 13,
Pitched to me, two fastballs that I didn’t see coming

On the third day of Grandkids, Keaton, 13,
Gave to me, three soccer balls and a pair of spikes

On the fourth day of Grandkids, Kiana, 12,
Helped me up four times, after showing me the splits

On the fifth day of Grandkids, Brenna, 11,
Performed for me, five new tap dance routines

On the sixth day of Grandkids, Cassidy, 11,
Played for me, six new songs on her flute

On the seventh day of Grandkids, Carson, 9,
Batted for me, seven runs in the last inning

On the eighth day of Grandkids, Makenna, 9,
Played for me, eight nursery rhymes on the piano

On the ninth day of Grandkids, Madison, 9,
Sang for me, nine lovely songs with a smile

On the tenth day of Grandkids, Mason, 9,
Showed to me, ten pop-a-wheelies on his scooter

On the eleventh day of Grandkids, Ava, 7,
Read to me, eleven stories that she wrote

On the twelfth day of Grandkids, Kami, 6,
Drew for me, twelve horses standing in the snow

What a blessing these children are to me
And being together is the joy of Christmas
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Nothing New
By Ize Spielman

“Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!” I yelled as loud as possible while I jumped as hard as I could on my parents’ bed. This was my favorite day of the entire year. How could they still be sleeping?

“Ugh, we’re awake… go on, we’ll meet you there,” my half-awake mother mumbled as she and my father slowly forced themselves out of bed.

I tore through our home and out the front door into the hallway to join the quickly growing tide of people. Everywhere around me was a mass of frantic people. Kids ran and pushed past other each other or dragged parents behind them. Their enthusiasm didn’t diminish even when we all crammed into the elevator that would take us to the gargantuan meeting hall on C deck. When the lift finally came to a stop, and without even waiting for the doors to fully open, we came forth like a torrent of water unleashed from a burst damn.

I stepped to the side of the lift to wait for my parents. I could not help but admire the meeting hall. Simply calling it big would be the single greatest understatement in human history since it was able to hold the entirety of our ship’s eighty-four thousand people and still leave loads of space. They had dimmed the powerful, sterile white lights that normally filled the room, so that you could better see the strands of haphazardly strung colored lights and the stars that zipped past the large windows. Out of everything in this room though, it was the people gathered here, happily mingling, that made me so love this holiday. On the last week in the last month of the year nobody cared whom you where, how you dressed, or whether your father was the ship’s captain or the septic tank cleaner.

I was lost in the sights and sounds of everything until someone behind me laughed. I spun around to see my friend Gem tapping his foot with mock impatience and smiling slightly. “So Keyda, are you planning to join us, or are you going to just stand there and keep spacing out?”

I followed Gem over to where my other friend Lisa and all of our families were sitting. Our parents were getting ready to give each of us our gift. I sat down with them and smiled politely, but to be honest I was never much into the whole gift-giving thing. It always struck me as pointless since we were on a ship that has been in flight for nearly two and a half centuries. There hasn’t been anything new given in generations and it all ends up getting re-gifted the next year anyway. I’m even less interested this time since my parents are in charge of the gift-giving this year. They are both maintenance people so their idea of a good gift is anything interesting they find while cleaning.

Lisa got her gift first. It was a hairbrush and a jacket in surprisingly good condition, you could still guess the original color and it had only been patched twice. Gem was next; he ended up with a few beaten up, dusty books and a pair of socks.

Father gave me my gift last, a large heavy wooden box. All manner flowers and swirling patterns had been lovingly carved into every surface and the whole thing was kept closed by a dulled brass lock. Around the edges where it opened, if you looked closely you could see an airtight rubber seal. It was old of course; everything was, but it was a different kind of old. Where everything else on this ship has been patched, worn, patched again, and repainted at least a dozen times this box of mine looked as if it had never been touched.

“We found it shoved in an air duct of all places,” my mother told me. “We didn’t look inside though; didn’t want to ruin the surprise.”

“You going to open it?” my father asked, and handed me the key.

I placed it down on the floor, unlocked it and lifted the lid carefully. Inside was a photograph of a smiling, dark-haired woman laid on top of something wrapped in plastic. I removed the photo and peeled back the protective plastic, revealing something soft and folded.

“Take it out Keyda,” my father whispered.

I did as my father said and as I stood there the whole room became silent, save for a few hushed whispers. People all around fought to see and all who could see stared at me and my gift, stared at something that no one had ever seen in their lifetime. All their attention was focused on me. Me and my brand new, centuries old, perfectly clean flowing white dress.
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Kissy-face Santa
By Jenifer DeBellis

Dedicated to Ricky and Suzie Young,
wherever life ended up taking you both.
I shall never forget the night before Christmas...

It’s not every day Santa makes special house trips to visit little girls and boys during wakeful hours. So the Christmas Eve Mr. Claus paid me and my baby sister a special visit was one I shall never forget. Of course, it was Santa’s peculiar behavior that has stuck with me for all of these years.

Being an Air Force brat stationed in Germany is a lot for a four and a half year-old little girl to wrap her always thinking mind around. As the holiday season neared the big day, my anxious areas of concern were how was Santa supposed to find us, and more importantly, how would he get into our apartment if we didn’t have a fireplace?

This is most likely the reason he showed up in our doorway that Christmas Eve in ’77. In the spirit of keeping the magic alive, someone must have made arrangements for this private little gathering. Perhaps it was my mom’s best friend, Suzie, who was with us when the doorbell rang.

At the sound of the bell, she bolted for that door like her life depended on it. After a moment of silence, Santa’s chanted, “Ho, ho, ho. Merry Christmas!” could be heard from around the corner where we all sat in the living room. Well, nothing sends young and old alike scrambling to the scene of action like a familiar sound from distant lands. “Could that be who it sounds like?” was the common awed response.

As I rounded the corner leading to the front door, I caught the most profound sight: Santa had Suzie dipped back and was quite passionately kissing her. I tried to make sense of this, while I drowned out my mom’s scolding in the background as she insisted that her friend knock it off already.

Upon seeing my bewildered expression, and unexpected presence (I was sure), Santa returned Suzie to her upright position. From the embarrassment of this awkward moment, his face was the darkest shade of red. Suzie’s expression, on the other hand, appeared to be more victorious and completely void of any shame. I took this all in with my quizzical stare.

My mom began pulling me back into the other room, and encouraged Santa and Suzie to follow us. I stole one more peak over my shoulder as we walked the short distance. When what to my wondering eye should appear? But Suzie smack-groping ‘ole Santa’s rear!

What was I supposed to do with this horrible secret? Didn’t Santa know Mrs. Claus was watching over the North Pole while he was gone, and she could see who was being naughty or nice? Or how about poor Ricky, my favorite pal; what would he think of this behavior? I guess even Santa Claus acted like a bad little boy at times. This was the only reference of peace I could draw from this moment.

My daydreams were interrupted by the small pile of presents sitting next to me with my name on them. The first present was from my granny and papa all the way in Florida. I sighed inward, withholding my disappointment at the sight of footed pajamas. Didn’t they know those things suffocated you? I smiled for the picture my mom was snapping with her new camera, mostly because I knew if I acted how I felt at the moment, it would not be good for me!

Without waiting, I snatched up the next gift. I didn’t need help reading the tag because I recognized the name Jimmy on it (as this is also my father’s name that I had seen so many times, it was committed to my memory). I guessed correctly that it was from Aunt Jane and Uncle Jimmy in Minnesota. Wow, I thought, Santa really had to work hard chasing these down for us. Maybe the guy in red wasn’t such a bad man after all. I ripped the paper off of that gift with lightning speed; I knew if it was from Aunt Jane, it was going to be spectacular! And it was. I now held a giant Raggedy Ann doll. A brand new one, not a hand-me-down, or knock-off version; but the REAL DEAL!

I sat squeezing my beloved new doll to my chest for the remainder of the night. From the cozy little spot on the sofa where I was curled up, I watched Suzie and Santa through slitted eyes. Can you believe Suzie sat on that man’s lap the rest of the night, giggling like a little schoolgirl the whole time?
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HAPPY SANTA
By Nancy Washburn

Santa rolled out of his comfy bed at dawn
Grabbed his list and red suit, and gave a big yawn
The elves helped him pack up the huge empty sleigh,
Hitched up old Rudolph and his team for the day

The GPS showed them where to bring the toys
Over the mounds of snow, to all girls and boys
Had some milk and cookies, near the fireplace
Then back up the chimney, with soot on his face

He flew to the North Pole with two tired feet
To rest, and tell Grandma about all the treats
They fell asleep dreaming of joy and the smiles
Of families together, who traveled for miles
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Winter Wonder
Luisa Zavich

Just as the sky brings snow,
The sales bring shoppers,
Fill parking lots,
and verbally abuse
the overworked employees
Hanging off the ladder,
Reaching for the large,
and two hours late for their break
In this, the most wonderful time of the year
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One day I sat and wondered
If all could be revealed
In a letter to dear Santa
Signed in red, and kissed and sealed
My letter’s full of wishes
For others, not just me and
Although they might need miracles
I know Santa personally.
“Dear Santa”
For Mark and the two Meagans
Please reduce the National Debt
And for the rest of us, an A
In economics, you can bet
But we would trade those wishes
For a wish you cannot see
It’s not a wish for one of us
It’s one for Mr. Ali
For Mrs. Ali, the gift of health
Send a cure for diabetes
For that matters much more to us now
Than GDP, and trade and treaties
And while I studied Sun and stars
And the properties of light
Tom Woodside also taught me
About doing what is right
He might wish for Night Sight shades


Or a shiny telescope
But you can bet he’d trade it in
For a glimpse of faith and hope
He goes each year to Africa
A saint in teacher’s clothes
He spreads the wealth, and health and joy
To folks he barely knows
Again we’d trade our wishes
For material things and grades
To cure those orphaned children
In Africa with AIDS
Chelsea wants a Ford Escape
For Alex – something WILD
But again we’ll trade those wishes
For a special little child
For Mrs. Borner’s grandchild
Just a few weeks old
Please give this child happiness
And shelter from the cold
And at the end, the final wish
To you from me, so please
Give yourself a great big kiss
And a thank you straight from me
Cathy Plum
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A Foreign View
By Luisa Zavich

      We put up the tree every year, my brother and I. It takes us a good two hours but we do it anyway. John’s only seven, but he musters all of his strength to put together the tree I bought a few years ago. It’s one of those do-it-yourself trees; the branches are color coded, so you know that the branches with the blue ribbon go at the bottom.  While I stand up the metal tree trunk, my brother spreads out the bristles on each branch and we attach them together.
      When he was only three, I can remember John coming up to ask me, “How can Santa come to our house if we don’t have a tree?” I spent two paychecks on the damn thing, but it’s something I will never regret.
      At that moment, I was speechless. His doe-like eyes brought me back to when I was a child first being presented with the notion of Santa. It was a delight beyond measure. I was six, much older than John, but that was when I began speaking English (however broken). As soon as I told my parents, they said, in Serbian, that Santa didn’t bring presents to foreign boys and girls. I remember crying, but as soon as my dad threatened to take off his belt, I stopped. I didn’t want my brother to be so crushed at such a young age.
      So I bought the tree, and every year we spent the day after Thanksgiving (another American holiday my parents shunned) putting it together, covering it in homemade ornaments and lights I bought with another paycheck. My mom would never fail to walk by and look at is disapprovingly, muttering under her breath about how we set up a shrine to a fictitious American icon and, (in Serbian of course) “ignore our own saint from our culture.” One year we put an ornament with a picture of Sveti Nikola on the tree, but my mom ripped it off with irritation.
      My dad has started to enjoy this tradition my brother and I now uphold, and is my sort-of buffer when my mother starts to complain about our immersion into western ways. It didn’t happen overnight, though. For a couple of years, I hated Christmas. I got suspended twice for getting in fights over other kids’ belief in Santa. But after a while, I cursed my parents and their inability to put up a damn tree like the other kids’ parents. I didn’t know which culture to project, to love, to live. My heart still loved my heritage, but my mind was growing in the American culture and society in which I lived.
     After putting up the tree for a few years, leaving gifts for John from Santa, and still associating myself with my culture, I have grown to realize that I don’t have to choose. I can have both; I can love both. I have learned how to balance both the Serbian and American in me. This year, my dad even helped us, which made my brother explode with joy. I can’t lie; I was thrilled as well. My dad told me he would buy Santa’s present this year, and to check under the tree for my name. He said, to make my mom feel better, he would leave them on the seventh of January, on our holiday. I will never forget when he hung the picture of Sveti Nikola on the top of our tree and told my mom if she even thought about taking it down she would get it.
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Winter is my Plainsong
A vignette by Stella (Wilfinger) Rothe

(Part of a diary entry; and in part inspired by the Benedictine monks of Santo Domingo de Silos.)

O, sweet and miraculous night! Sleeping souls are tenderly roused, not knowing why that, in the heart of night, their rest has been disrupted. The earth’s steady rotation nudges us out of dreamland, leading us into a solitude that not even sleep can replicate. We awaken because we know, instinctively, that the world has changed overnight becoming calmer . . . quieter. Everything but the wind is muffled by a thickening snow. The ground is white; the snow is unstained, unspoiled. Many lives have come and gone upon this ground; but, tonight, history is swept clean and old memories are buried beneath spotless snowdrifts.

There is plainsong in the falling snowflakes and the whirling wind. There is chant in winter’s steady rhythm. The sounds of nature’s hushed symphony are in a cacophony of earthly delight. The low moan of the breeze is composed of matchless beauty, skimming the ground as a layer of snow swirls, unfettered, in a crystalline and misty dance. This is when ancient lore and phenomena collide with modern minds, forcing us to understand the world as a child would. Oh, so many questions and each one replaced with: wonder! Delight! Sweetness! Pleasure laced with frost and pierced with icicles!

There is a muted pause, as if the earth ceased breathing just long enough to wake our tired bodies and call us to our windows. We reach sleepy fingers out and touch soft lace, slipping back curtains to see a world of white stillness. Here is an escape from the rushed pace of life.

There has to be some rectitude in the world
or what use is life?

Dare we venture into this place our souls have been led? Step outside and the night is as vivid as the afternoon; the snow makes everything bright. And then, those first few steps into the fresh frosty mounds. We retrace our steps to avoid spoiling the pristine beauty. The sun begins to rise and the mind reverts to a place of innocence and purity - a sanctuary where thoughts resist demons and settle into silence.
                                                                                    I awaken. 
There is nothing stirring in my house: no sound to draw me out of dreamland and no light to crawl inside my eyes. There are no nightmares to escape from, nor no fiends in my head. I wake because a Spirit beckons me ~ the Spirit of Snow. I crawl out of linen sheets and glide out into the winter. My feet touch ice. My face is greeted by a frosty breeze. For just long enough, I stand in awe of the creative Muse of nature. My feet grow numb as my mind is enlightened, and in a meditative state I return to where humanity belongs:                                                             
                                               Peace!
Eleison. *


*Eleison is a Latin term meaning “Mercy” in the fullest and deepest human sense: a complete and compassionate extension of divine love. Plainsong is a simple melody primarily used in Gregorian Chants.
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Winter Walk by Luisa Zavich



Foggy Morning, 6 a.m. by Stella (Wilfinger) Rothe




Back cover art by Ize Spielman



Wednesday, December 2, 2009

MARK TWAIN'S HOUSE

by Cathy Plum ~ ~ Summer 2008

I had heard that touching the famous “handrail” in Mark Twain’s Connecticut home was something every writer should experience. For some, it was the equivalent of shaking the hand of the genius himself, whose real name was Samuel Clemens. In the stale air of a museum, could I really hope to recall the air that once moved through the home? Was it a gentle breeze on a summer’s eve, or a winter’s bellow that blew past him and inspired great works of art? That’s what I went to find out as I traveled to Hartford , Connecticut to go to the home of Mark Twain. I wanted to see if I could get a glimpse of what he saw, and I wanted to be inspired.

I spent the trip recalling the adventures of Huckleberry Finn, Tom Sawyer, and Becky Thatcher. I always wanted to be Becky Thatcher when I was a kid -- swinging off a rope into a lake, hanging out with the bad boys, and living in the country. It was the complete opposite of my childhood, (well maybe there were a few bad boys).

I arrived at Mark Twain’s house before 9:30 a.m. , and was the first patron that sunny Monday morning. There was a woman sitting on the vast porch. She proudly wore a red, white, and blue nametag that said “Olivia C, Volunteer Tour Guide.” She welcomed me into the beautiful house – filled with Twain’s original furniture and family portraits. Olivia began immediately telling me vivid stories that were alive with detail. As we walked, our voices echoed through empty halls.

After the standard tour, I started asking Olivia questions. She answered each one quickly and with great recollection, like she knew Twain personally. She had a twinkle in her eye each time she referred to him as “Sam”. I told Olivia we should write a book together, but first I had to touch the “handrail”. She laughed and said, “I’ll let you in on a little secret. Put your hand firmly on the handrail, and then close your eyes.”

A bit apprehensive, I followed her instructions and placed my hand on the famous handrail. I closed my eyes. All at once, I felt dizzy. When I opened my eyes, the house was very much alive. No longer was I in a quiet, empty house. I stood with my hand firmly on the “handrail” and the enticing smell of baking bread sailed through on the flowery summer breeze. I heard the distinctive sound of a typewriter in the halls that were quiet just a moment ago, and I heard children playing upstairs. I glanced through the front screen door and the plain front porch now donned proud swags of vibrant holiday colors in red white and blue. Suddenly, I was in a small kitchen. A woman stood directly in front of me, but I could only see her back. When she turned around to face me, I became scared and quickly lifted my hand from the worn wood.

Olivia’s voice brought me back. She was telling a story of a gala Fourth of July celebration. I noticed a twinkle in her eye and I knew in an instant that she must have experienced what I just saw. She had smelled the baking bread and heard the typewriter in the halls. She had touched the handrail all right. That’s how she knew the stories. I sat down on the stairs and started to cry. As the first tear fell upon my cheek, without question, Olivia handed me a hankie. When I looked up, she was gone. I called to her but I was alone.

A moment passed, and a young woman walked through the front screen door. “Hi. I’m Carrie, the tour guide. Sorry I’m late. Have you been waiting long?”

“Where’s Olivia?” I asked. I looked down at the hankie my esteemed tour guide had just given me.

“There is no one here named Olivia, not anymore anyway.” After a glance into thin air, Carrie began recalling memorized facts about the Twain lineage. “Olivia, Olivia … let me see. Olivia Langdon Clemens, wife of Samuel Clemens, born in 1845 and died in June 1904. She was often found in the kitchen. She loved to bake bread.”

Stunned, I looked down at the hankie and slowly opened it up. Embroidered in bright blue with red flowers, were the initials “OLC” Olivia Langdon Clemens! My very knowledgeable tour guide, Olivia C, had been none other than Olivia Langdon Clemens, wife of “Samuel” Clemens! It was her in the kitchen, cooking the bread. That’s how she knew the stories – she lived them. Her love for this beautiful home, and for “Sam”, echoed in her stories. She had touched the handrail all right … many, many times. And, she had picked me from all the other writers who had visited before.

I let an anxious Carrie take me on my second tour of the Twain home as she filled my head with more facts about the life of Samuel Clemens. The last surviving member of the family was his granddaughter, Nina, who died just three days before I was born. Before long, I knew that Carrie would be a valuable source for Twain’s lineage.

The long road I had traveled to Connecticut seemed almost surreal as the sights, sounds, and smells of the past swirled around my head.

When it came time for me to touch the famous handrail, I faltered for a moment. I told Carrie that we should write a book together, but that I had to touch the handrail first. This time, I shook Twain’s hand when I touched his handrail – and politely thanked him for the tour.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Share Your Talent!

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The Macomb Guild of Writers is "half-publishing" its second Half Book, The Altered 'Alfbook: a collection of altered fairy tales, poems, stories, sonnets, and/or art. Do you wish Cinderella would have been a Cinderfella? Would you like to tweak your favorite Shakespeare sonnet (or least favorite) and make it your own? Use your imagination and get out your quill and ink for a merry romp through the world of altered fiction.
"Half publication" of your entries is at the discretion of our board members. Have fun, and send your entries to: MacombGuildOfWriters@gmail.com
Thank you!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

MCC Writing Club's First Half Book Publication




Thanks for picking up the first edition of the Half Book. Inside you will find a scary collection of works from MCC students. Take it with you, bring it to class, tell people about it.

The writing club meets each Monday in the P Building, on Center Campus, from 12:45-2:00 p.m.
The Writing Club

Front cover art by Stella Rothe (Wilfinger)

Revised Publication November 2009


Macomb Guild of Writers
Macomb Community College Writing Club
macombguildofwriters.blogspot.com
Email: macombguildofwriters@gmail.com


Contents

The Mystery of Fear by The Macomb Writing Club
Collateral Damage by Cathy Plum
Danger by Nancy Washburn
A Cold, Hard Look by Jenifer DeBellis
A Load of Dirt by Cathy Plum
Brunch for One by Cathy Plum
Full Circle by Jen DeBellis & Kathy Smythe
The Ghost of You (can leave now) by Tracy Stapleton
This Fear of Failure by Jenifer DeBellis
A Story About Barney…Now that’s Scary by Cathy Plum
Photography by Elise Cygan
Excerpt from Story by Ize Spielman
My Pantoum: Lost by Cathy Plum
Creepy Halloween by Nancy Washburn
Undoing by Jenifer DeBellis
Uninvited Guests at Bill Brown’s by Cathy Plum
Waking Dream by Stella Rothe (Wilfinger)
Scared Yet? By Cathy Plum




The Mystery of Fear
A compilation of fears by The MCC Writing Club

I’m afraid of monsters with dripping bits of brains,
Halloween, and trick or treating in the pouring rain

I’m afraid of driving; Metal Monster of Death
Crushing cars, bloody bodies, taking their last breath

I’m afraid of blood clots, heading for my lungs,
and of some Yakuza guy cutting off my tongue

My worst fear is the thought of being abandoned,
Or an idle brain, neglected and unchallenged

I’m afraid of drunk folk that come across my path
Almost as much as I fear taking basic math

I’m afraid of falling off a cliff that is so high,
It reaches up and grabs me: I wish that I could fly

I’m afraid my fear of death will ruin my joy of life,
And that I’ll never become a mother and a wife

Fear is a mystery; its roots run deep and wide
Its victims cannot run, or seek a place to hide.


COLLATERAL DAMAGE
by Cathy Plum

HOW DO YOU TELL A MOTHER
THAT HER SON HAS LOST HIS LIFE?
“FOR THE GREATER GOOD” IT’S SAID
IS THE REASON FOR HER STRIFE

IS IT FAIR TO THINK
THAT YOUR COUNTRY’S WORTH YOUR LIFE?
WHAT IF YOU’RE A DADDY
AND BACK HOME YOU HAVE A WIFE

ARE WE JUST COLLATERAL
IN THIS GAME CALLED LIFE?
AND IT’S HONOR FOR OUR COUNTRY
THAT CUTS US LIKE A KNIFE

WHAT IS THE PRICE OF FREEDOM?
DO YOU PAY IT WITH YOUR LIFE?


DANGER
by Nancy Washburn

It was a dark, cold Halloween night. We were at our high school football game. We cheered loudly, shaking our orange pompoms, wearing short orange skirts with black sweaters, and black cowboy boots. We won the game, and it was getting late. Some of my friends were dressed up in costumes. Billy was a scary werewolf, Bobby was Frankenstein, and Sherry was Elvira. Everyone was leaving the field. I decided to take the short-cut home through the woods, like I always did. I loved nature, and this was my very own beaten path. The wind got stronger and blew the branches lower, slapping my face.

Suddenly, I heard slow, pounding footsteps behind me. My heart was beating like a drum, and I thought it was going to burst out of my chest. The moon was glowing through the treetops. I quickly turned around, saw a tall man wearing a blue ski cap, and aiming a pair of big hedge trimmers at my head. He was laughing. I could hear the trimmers opening and closing. Snip! Snip! Cut! Cut! I could feel the tips of the huge scissor-like blades on my long, brown hair. I ran faster.

O God, please help me! I tried to scream, but no sound came out. We reached the end of the woods, where the long, red wooden fence began. I gained some speed. Where was everyone? If only I could spot a house. Why wouldn’t he stop? I caught a glimpse of his peering, green eyes. He retreated for a few seconds, and then got a second wind. Snip! Snip! Cut! Cut! Echoing in my head, the noise got louder and louder. I couldn’t run anymore. He kept missing me. I saw the silver trimmers next to my face. He grabbed me, and threw me on the ground. Thud! I tried to fight him off. Then I woke up, on the carpet in my bedroom, hugging my pillow.
***


A Cold, Hard Look
by Jenifer DeBellis

I woke up from a dead sleep to a drilling sound close to my face. My eyes snapped open to a room I didn’t recognize. Confusion flitted through my thoughts as I tried to sit up, only to discover my hands and legs were being held down. The foggy, umber hue engulfing the room made it impossible to make out the three figures repressing my body.

A shudder of fear ripped through me. I tried to form questions from immobile lips. What the heck was happening to me? I thought back to the hours before I went to sleep. Had I been in some sort of accident or something?

“You’re doing awesome, sweetie,” a familiar voice murmured near my ear. “Just a few more adjustments...”

From where did I know this man’s voice?

My face and chest were throbbing with pain. I was aware of a warm sensation cursing through my veins. Something, possibly blood or sweat, trickled down my cheek.

I felt a tug near my temple, followed by the snip of scissors. The hand, working feverishly upon my face, wiped the drip from my cheek. This gesture caused a shiver to run along my spine.

“Just a few more touches,” a feminine voice cooed above my head, “and you’re golden.”

Whoever held my opposite side began to gently rub the inner part of my right arm.

Involuntary tremors ripped through my body; I was overcome with a quivering sensation. Maybe I was in shock, I reassured my frantic thoughts.

“There,” the familiar male voice announced.

I was released from my tri-fold stronghold. My body’s immediate response was an overwhelming desire to escape this scene. I didn’t waste another moment laying in the darkness.

With shaky steps, I felt my way towards the dim light on the opposite side of the gloomy room. My steps faltered and were clumsy. I walked slowly, longing to be in the promising light.

It was the assurance the light held that propelled my forward movement. This flicker of illumination filled me with hope; it was the only rational emotion running the circuit of my thoughts during this stumbling journey. Yet, the pain stabbing throughout my head and chest was crippling. This throbbing sensation competed with such fervor against my hopeful feelings; it was successful in drowning out all of my positive points of reflection.

At last I reached the cracked door, which led to my promised deliverance from this oppressive room. I flung it open with too much enthusiasm and stepped into the light. My eyes labored to adjust to the drastic change in exposure.

After blinking several times, my focus was drawn to a mirror spanning the entire length of the wall. It wasn’t until I rested my hand upon the counter that I noticed a reflection of movement. Upon this revelation, my eyes sought my face in the mirror.

I gasped at the foreigner looking back at me. My eyes bore into the eyes staring at me from the recesses of the mirror. Time stood still as I absorbed the image of this stranger’s face. Whom was this reflection looking back at me?

My focus was drawn back to the familiar eyes: a set I knew only too well. We stared at each other for what seemed like an eternity, neither one willing to break the trance.

We reached our hands toward one another. Upon contact, I was overwhelmed with a severe, cold sensation…

With a start, I shot up from my slumbered state.
***


A Load of Dirt
by Cathy Plum

I’d love to get a load of dirt
And pour it on a nice white shirt
I’d love to get a pair of pants
And fill them up with fire ants
I’d love to get a red Mustang
And drive it fast ‘til sirens rang
I’d love to get an old stray cat
And let him eat a nasty rat
I’d love to get a pretty flower
And drop it from the highest tower
I’d love to get a change of heart
And give myself a brand new start


Brunch for One
by Cathy Plum
Italic
It’s almost noon, September 11, 2001. The curtain opens and the main character, Anna, is preparing a brunch for Phillip, her boyfriend of five years. She is listening to Antonio Vivaldi’s The Four Seasons Pinchas Zukerman and the English Chamber Orchestra’s La Primavera Concerto in E Major, Op.8, No. 1, or for the laymen: Spring. Anna sets the table in the dining room near the window overlooking the meadow, as she anxiously awaits Phillip’s arrival. He would be returning home very soon; and she could hardly wait. Phillip works in New York City as a Bond Trader on the top floor of the World Trade Center. Anna and Phillip live together in a beautiful home in upstate New York. They have been planning a life together with children, but just haven’t found the time in their busy work schedules to squeeze in parenthood. Today is the day she will tell Phillip she is pregnant, albeit only 2 weeks, but pregnant nonetheless.

Phillip is late, and he’s never late, and Anna is beginning to worry. She telephones his office and the operator says, “All circuits are busy. Please try your call again later.” That’s a first. How strange. She puts the phone down and it immediately rings. It’s Phillip, she thought, hopefully, on his way.

Anna is about to receive a phone call that will change her life forever. She answers and it is her mother calling from Savannah; she is hysterical. “Oh, Honey, I’m so glad you picked up. No work today?”

“No, Mom. I took the day off. I’m making brunch for Phillip, but he’s running late.”

“Oh dear … you haven’t heard, have you?”

“Heard what?”

The music is the background that begins to drown out Anna as she receives the news about the Twin Towers. She drops the phone, and turns on the TV. The audience does not see the TV, only Anna as she hears an announcer stating that thousands of lives have been lost. The scenes of the towers, falling one by one, people bleeding in the streets, New York covered in ash. Anna falls to the ground searching for the phone. Anna’s mother’s voice is yelling “Hunny! Hunny! Are you there? Anna? Anna!”

The music gets louder and Anna’s cries are silenced by Vivaldi that plays for the rest of the scene. The solemn and fitful sounds of Vivaldi’s Four Seasons continue as Anna hysterically speaks with her mother, simultaneously while she watches the unbelievable horror unfolding in front of her eyes. The sounds of Vivaldi echo the character’s pain and anguish, as the scene ends with Anna kneeling, sobbing, and praying to God that Phillip’s life has not been lost – just as a new life is beginning inside her.
***

Full Circle
by Jen DeBellis & Kathy Smythe

Mommy, mommy, come quick
there's a monster under my bed

Sweetheart, please calm down
these monsters are all in your head

Daddy, daddy, come and see
He’s using my blankie as a bedspread

Sweetie, how bad can that monster be?
Go ask your mother for help instead


The Ghost of You (can leave now)
by Tracy Stapleton

The ghost in my bed
really lives in my head
but his boxes are in my hamper.

He still hogs the covers,
the last of my lovers,
and I think he just farted on me.


This Fear of Failure…
by Jenifer DeBellis

My words flow out freely;
these pieces of me in thoughts.
Too much to contain in one mind,
Poured out; crafted into form.

Never a fret or regret
on my way to the alter.
No thought of flee
or flight in bed of labor…

Now completely filled with fear,
trepidation, and intimidation
at the mere mentioning
of sending my words for review

Where is the bravery, or brass
of confidence and security?
Which manifests itself in
all other aspects of living breath?

Clouds of doubt, like a raging storm
shadow all judgment and reason;
torrent winds sweep through head,
lashing and licking hopes until dead.

Whirlwind of soul’s oppression
Wind and wrap around; suffocating
Spirit now flaccid; unraveling.
I dance around pit of depression.


A Story About Barney … Now that’s Scary
by Cathy Plum

What comes up at the break of day?
Brightly shines while we sing and play
And in the evening it goes away
It’s the SUN, SUN, SUN!

“Huh, huh! Hey kids! What does the Weather Bear say today?” Barney yells with great enthusiasm.

“IT’S SUNNY!” the preschool kids yell with glee.

It’s January, 1993, and I’ve invested in my one-year old son’s well-being by purchasing every Barney VHS tape I can get my hands on. Mitchy loves Barney. My mom sews up Barney crib sheets for his new big boy bed; and Barney pillow cases and shams, fuzzy blankets, a comforter with rickrack, and official stuffed Barneys in two sizes; one for traveling in the car. The years pass, and Mitchell grows out of Barney and into even more aggravating things like Pokemon.

Fast-forward a few years to 1996. My second son, Nathan, was a product of society and soon became a Barney-basher, although he did love Blue’s Clues and the Teletubbies. (At least it wasn’t the modern-day version of the Teletubbies that look like huge boobs with oversized nipples!)

The VHS collection, full of positive reinforcement, and plenty of Barney songs, was eventually passed on to my friend, Kim, who owned and operated a daycare in her home. The tapes were passed on again, when Kim hung up her baby booties, and now they are safe in the hands of my friend, Suzie. Now I watch them at Suzie’s. Each time I volunteer, it is 1993 all over again. I’m, singing, “I wish there was school everyday” with Tina, as I dance around like Barney the freakin’ dinosaur. I amaze the daycare kids with my accuracy to detail and well-planned choreography. For years, I have been teaching kids these Barney songs, and they love it … and so do I.

What comes up at the break of day?
Brightly shines while we sing and play
And in the evening it goes away
It’s the SUN, SUN, SUN!
***




Trump Building - Chicago, Illinois Photograph by Elise Cygan


Excerpt from 30 Days
by Ize Spielman

“Let’s listen to some music or something.” Aunt Christie says in that infuriating always cheery voice of hers.
My hand shoots for the radio but she gets there first and turns on only God knows what. “See, isn’t that better?”
Only if your idea of “better” is some 1950’s Broadway musical. “Look,” I pretend to care and look where my Aunts pointing. It’s at the city she lives in whose name I don’t, nor care, to know. “We’re almost there.”

The radio squeals and becomes static before turning off. Oh thank God for that…

The car stops. It doesn’t stall or sputter; it simply turns itself off. In all of an instant the engine ceases, the air conditioning halts, even the little lights on the dashboard blink out. Before I have time to really register what is going on, I get a face full of dashboard as my aunt panics and slams on the breaks, getting the car to come to a stop where the interstate splits, one side going straight and the other turning off into a tunnel. She unbuckles her seatbelt and steps out, gesturing to me to stay in the car - like she really thinks I’m going to get out. She walks over and begins talking to some old guy, occasionally looking back towards me. I look around and notice not a single car on the interstate is working. Somehow my trip just found a way to get worse.

Heads turn toward the cityscape and people point at the sky, while others start running as fast as they can away from the city. I’m trying to unbuckle my seat belt while outside people are screaming and scrambling for cover under their vehicles. A furious light that burns all it touches overtakes everything. My hands leave the seat belt buckle to try to shield my eyes from the light-brought pain. It’s still burning! I curl into a ball, now attempting to shield my face with crossed arms. It’s still burning! A roar that could be born from only the depths of hell itself surrounds me. Please God, help me. Some unseen force lifts my car and flings it as a raving young child throws a toy. Soft flesh slams into mechanical parts. For a brief, almost unperceivable moment I’m free of the bonds of gravity, but gravity, having been scorned, brings my car back into its clutches and drives it into the pavement, and I can feel myself bouncing and rolling end over end. My head hits the dashboard again and reality seems to fade for a fraction of a moment. I can’t feel anything but pain. My car rolls into the tunnel. Stop, please stop…

Pulsing waves of dry heat envelop everything and I can hear my own screaming over the roar. An impish crackle joins the cacophony as tongues of flame spring to life and dance on materials that succumb to the heat’s influence. There’s nothing but my own screams and the evil banshee wail of twisting metal. The heat seems to burn the air away. I can’t breathe! The roaring, the heat, the light are all rising, rising, rising, building to an unholy crescendo. Then, as abruptly as they came, the heat and the roaring and the light all vanish. I feel air rush into my lungs. I can hear unconsciousness call to me. And I am glad to answer.
***


My Pantoum: Lost
by Cathy Plum

I am lost
Where’s my Mom?
I’m so scared
I’m only four

This store’s so big
I am lost
I’ll hide in here
I’m so scared

Will she find me?
This store’s so big
Behind the clothes
I’ll hide in here

Here she comes
Will she find me?
I’m safe now
Behind the clothes

Where’s my Mom?
Here she comes
I’m only four
I’m safe now


CREEPY HALLOWEEN
by Nancy Washburn

“TRICK OR TREAT,” yelled the little blond girl dressed like Cinderella, as she knocked on the black door, full of cobwebs. It was dark and drizzly that night, but her dress sparkled by the shadow of the moon. A tall ghostlike figure answered, and whispered, “Happy Halloween, cutie. Here is a big, warm chocolate chip cookie just for you.”

“Thank you,” she said, and started to put it in her pumpkin-shaped tote bag.

“Oh, No! Eat it now, to make sure it is sweet enough, just like you,” he laughed.

“Okay,” she said, “I am getting hungry after all this walking. My daddy is down the block,” as she pointed towards a neighbor’s house. Suzie, a smart, innocent five-year old was not suspicious at all. So she ate the whole cookie and went on her way.

A couple hours later, when she got home, she excitedly dropped all the Tootsie Rolls, Milky Ways, and bubble gum on the table. They were all surprised to see a couple dollar bills and a few quarters in the pile. Her mom and dad were smiling to see her so happy. Suddenly, Suzie fell backwards, and hit her head on the edge of the chair. She vomited, and blacked out. Her mom screamed, and called 911.The ambulance came, and rushed her to the nearest hospital.

The doctors frantically pumped her stomach, and she went to sleep. They discovered she was poisoned. Her mom and dad had the remaining candy checked at the hospital, but nothing was tainted. When Suzie woke up, she told them about the man in the ghost costume who gave her a huge cookie. They drove over to the house the next morning, and Suzie pointed at the house. Her parents walked up the crooked steps… no black door…no cobwebs…no ghost…just an empty house.
***


Undoing
by Jenifer DeBellis

Pulling the threads from my heart,
a
single
thread
at
a
time
Your finger, still looped on the end,
flaccid edges, so frayed, left behind.

My fear: The unraveling,
the coming undone
will dawn a dark day –
there’ll be no stitches to pluck from

Yet I let you keep hold
of my heart’s undoing…
Let you have your tailor ways.
Soul open wide… while knowing

Love, placed in your artful hand
shared with you… like no other.
Yet you pull, and pluck, and unravel
what should be held together.

You must see my heart’s beating,
how it’s slowly fading away –
as the fibers outstretch from their muse,
once so intricate; now wasted, they lay.

What shall be left
once the last stitch is pulled?


The Uninvited Guests at Bill Brown’s
by Cathy Plum

In the basement of Bill Brown’s, there were the usual things one would find in a basement. A stack of old newspapers, an old radio, a box of miscellaneous items like Christmas lights, some striped wallpaper, and the broken lunchmeat drawer from the frig. The rug that Bill’s wife rolled up every Thursday night, so she could clean the kitchen floor on Friday morning, was perched in the corner, right next to her ONE ice skate that she put on once a year. She insisted on having one shoe for balance when she ice skated. When she lifted the shoed foot, she drifted across the ice with such grace, such poise, that no one noticed she was wearing only one skate.

Situated just at the bottom of the stairs was a small wooden door that lead to the plumbing access for the basement bathroom Bill had put in last summer. The door was hardly size enough to accommodate Bill, or any adult person, so it was an aesthetic addition to the basement, more than anything.

One sunny Friday morning, Bill descended into the basement to get the rug, to put back into kitchen, since Mrs. Brown had finished cleaning the kitchen floor early. On the third step from the bottom, Bill stopped mid-step. “His heart was pounding. He was sure he had seen the doorknob turn.”[1] He stood in silence for what seemed to be forever.

When forever passed, the knob turned again, but this time the door opened slightly. Bill blinked his eyes. Once; twice; hoping that with each succeeding blink, the door would close again. Instead, much to Bill’s dismay and horror, the door opened. One by one, three red balls rolled out and bumped into the bottom step.

After the three red balls, came three blue balls of light, floating about six inches above the ground at first. The light from the sun shining in from the egress paled in comparison. Each circular glowing form, independent from the other, traveled up and down and all around the basement at an alarming speed. All at once, the three spheres raced toward Bill. Terrified, he lost his footing on the steps, but before his ass hit the deck, he was lifted from harm and set at the foot of the stairs, on the bottom step.

The first circle of light came to him. Inside the glowing blue orb was a man’s face. The second and third entity also came to Bill. They, too, had some semblance of men in their core. They stared at Bill, and Bill stared back – for a long time.

“Bill! Where’s my rug?” shouted Bill’s better half.

The blue balls moved toward the rug. Without conscious effort, or hands, the trio of light picked up the rug and carried it through the air, and placed it on the landing so Bill’s ball-n-chain would think he had lovingly placed it there, immediately, at his old lady’s first beckoning.

“Thank you, dear. You’re a charm,” said Bill’s woman.

Bill and the round, colorful men had much in common, Bill thought.
***
[1] Quote by Chris VanAllsburg


Waking Dream
Dedicated to the art of John Henry Fuseli
by Stella Rothe

A young woman awoke to sunbeams streaming into her eyes. Rising tentatively from her warm blankets, she shivered as the cool morning air caressed her skin. The floor felt awkward after a long night's rest, as if she should still be sleeping and not standing upon it. A wave of dizziness engulfed her and she swayed, catching her balance by throwing her arms out to steady her body: long, bony arms; today they felt like wings.

And she could fly.

She rose up on the pads of her feet, thrust one leg out, and closed her eyes: yes, she could fly. Catch your balance, her mind screamed. Catch the wind! she corrected herself, and she took wing.

Her flight took her up a swirling staircase and into a dim room. Her eyes still closed, she felt around in the air and shuddered. Without opening her eyes, she knew what lay in the room: shadows. Shadows crawled across the floor, across the walls, up over the ceiling, and around her body: deep, thick shadows which seemed to move like smoke, engulfing her and filling her lungs. She choked. Don't lose your balance now, don't open your eyes! she willed herself, and she remained in the air: not flying now, but floating. Hovering upon a sea of smoky shadows, like an ocean of darkness, she allowed her mind to grow blank. Now she could only feel and not think, and the room held many tangible secrets.

With her fingers, the girl felt around in the dense atmosphere. She pulled strands of what seemed to be cobwebs from the ceiling to her breast, not certain whether she felt repulsed or strangely curious. She pulled more of the threads onto her bosom, allowing them to drift around her in soft, mysterious coils. Gradually, the threads began to change. Instead of silken fibers, they were fire-like in temperature and heavy in their weight. They started to entwine around the girl, twisting and pulling until her entire body was bound. Helpless to free herself she lay aloft, forced to float in the room with its dancing demons: for she was certain that demons were at work here, billowing about like smoke and binding her with spider-silk. They danced about her, first brushing seductively past her face, then flitting quickly around her feet, and finally slamming brusquely into her side with an intensity that stole her breath. A weight fell on her belly and sat there like a malevolent beast waiting for her to fall asleep so he could pull her apart. Suddenly, a freezing chill filled the room and, for a split second, everything went numb; the girl felt submerged in ice and her mind froze in terror. She felt a rush of cold air blow through the room, exiting with a deafening swoosh of sound.

Just as suddenly as the demons had arrived, they fled, and the girl was released from her torment. Slowly, the webs that encased her unwound, drifting away to she knew not where. She longed to open her eyes, but some invisible force held them shut as if a large hand was clamped across them. The weightlessness that had held the girl hostage disappeared, and she found herself able to fly once more. Should I go on? she wondered. She must.

Drifting into a second room, she sniffed. The scent of must, mold, and dampness filled her nose with an odor that was akin to death. It was as if the room itself had died and rotted away. Perhaps it had. Flying blindly, the girl had no sense of place except that she was someplace: not far from where she had just been, and not far from her bed in the basement below. Whether or not this place had solid walls and floors was a mystery. From the red light that filled her closed eyelids, and the cool, uneasy breeze that sifted through her hair, the girl guessed that there were either many open windows, or that the walls were crumbling into dust and exposing sunlight. Yes, that must be it, she thought, dust. Rot. The slow decay of wood and carpet. Her mind grew restless in this diseased room, and she longed to fly elsewhere. Yet somehow, the sad odors of this forlorn room made her feel pity for its existence. Did rooms remember conversations of past inhabitants? Did walls see faces and floors feel footprints? Was that how ghosts were created and entities given life? The girl could sense bodies below her, but she had the distinct feeling that they were only blighted pieces of furniture. Why, then, did their presence feel so real, so heavy and sorrow-filled? Did furniture absorb a bit of energy every time someone sat upon or touched it? The girl rested her arm upon what seemed to be the most tortured body of all, and felt nothing but velvet, old and grainy. The wretched body was nothing but an old sofa. Who had suffered on this sofa to infuse it with so strong an energy? The girl squeezed her eyes shut as tightly as she could manage. At the back of her mind, she could hear a woman screaming. Men were shouting and a dog was barking. The odor of mildew turned to the odor of sweat and blood, of human skin and salty tears. The woman's screams faded away and were replaced by the wails of a newborn infant. A man began sobbing and called out a female name, and in that instant it was clear that the wailing infant's mother was dead. Trembling, the girl flung her hand off of the decaying sofa. It was time to leave this room, with its ghosts of time and memory. Raising her arms above her head, she soared out of the oppressive chamber and into a narrow hallway.

The girl knew that the hallway was narrow because she immediately flew into a wall. Almost falling, she flew to the left and her shoulder slammed into yet another wall. Was the ceiling as low as this hall was narrow? Stretching her arms as far as they could go, she lifted her body upwards and soared up, up, up. At last her hands touched a surface of wood and steel-cold hardware. An attic door? A portal to heaven? There was only one way to find out. Feeling around in the blind darkness, the girl's hand touched a looped door-handle and tugged it until it dropped open. She felt a gust of air and flew forward, arriving in a room where candlelight flickered, creating shadow-dances under her closed eyelids. Here was a room she should not have entered, she quickly understood, as drops of warm liquid fell onto her head, dripping onto her shoulders and face, and sliding into her mouth. The salty iron taste was blood, and it began to pour over her until she was so heavy with it that she could barely stay afloat. Who suffered here? she screamed inside her mind, raising her arms to the heavens. Strong hands grasped her throat and clutched it until she was almost forced to open her eyes. “Don't open your eyes, don't open your eyes!” A voice close to her ears whispered. All around her head, a stabbing pain emerged, as if thorns were digging into her skull. Her head, her eyes, her body, every fiber of her being was in mortal agony. The vice-grip around her neck and head tightened. Images of angels, devils, minor deities, and hellish creatures spun around and around until a bright light broke through. She had to open her eyes. Don't open your eyes. She had to open her eyes.

The girl's eyes flew open, her arms went awry, and she fell off balance, landing in a soft heap on her bed. Sitting up, her arms sore and her legs throbbing, she smiled. Her flight of fancy was over; the tour through her haunted house was no more than a waking dream through her own haunted mind.
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Scared Yet?
by Cathy Plum

I guess I’m scared of some THING, some THING really bad,
But thinking all about it only makes me sad.

It’s not the dark, I’ve changed my mind, I don’t mind high up places,
I like the dark AND stormy nights, and don’t mind burnt up faces.

I worked for A-hole bosses, and in the double D,
And now that I am big, those things just don’t scare me.

I don’t like doctors or hospitals, so I just stay away,
The things that used to scare me – don’t scare me now today.


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